There is a lone swing on the top of a hill perched on tufts of brown grass. The bag said, “grass seeds that grow in any soil.” But it has been proven wrong. No, grass does not grow in this volcanic soil; it is not like grapevines, fir, oak, and pine trees. My toes push against the puffs of dry dirt beneath the old, frayed swing. Back and forth, back and forth, the swing creaks. There is no other place I’d rather be right now because this is the golden hour, and I have a bird’s-eye view. Set in treetops on a mountainside high above my driveway and even further above the road, is a place I call home.
But right now, the chatter of family’s voices after dinner is dimmed by the cranky calls of juvenile ravens testing their wings while calling to their parents for approval. Or is it help, as they miss their intended branch and loop around high into the sky for a second attempt. My eyes are looking down on them; that is how far up in the sky I am on my tattered old swing.
Beyond the clatter of ravens are painted hues of California’s golden hour. Nature’s paintbrush dusts and etches the tops of trees and Boggs Mountain even further away. The sky now turns pink and blue as the skyline begins to transform itself into evening. My toes push gently in the soft soil, browning them like a child who has recently played in the dirt.
Down the hill, a family of quail hurries back home after an evening romp, practicing the art of adulting as parents look on. Batty, the feral cat my son tamed long ago, has made herself at home near my feet, her tail flicking up and down. Her coat, brown and dusty like my feet, blends into the peaceful scene. All is well on the side of this mountain I call home. There is a deep sense of peace and rest. The treed skyline has changed once again as the golden light gracefully hands over to the night. It’s sunset now, with a full moon looking on at me. This place and this moment is where I am most at rest.
Tomorrow evening will be different than now. I’ll pack a bag of picnic gear and a bottle of wine. I can walk or drive, it does not matter because my destination is near. Far down below my house and across a mountain road is a cluster of small homes bound together by a pool. Arching over the driveway a sign reads, “Italian Village Resort.” Here the third-, fourth-, and fifth-generation homeowners carry on the traditions of their grandparents who built these cabins by hand in the forties and fifties. A lost time desperately clings to this generation. A time when mom and the kids left the city and summered in their cabins and dad drove up on the weekends. A time when all of Cobb Mountain had cabins and resorts bustling with weekenders and vacationers.
Keeping somewhat to the tradition, families still drive up every weekend through the summer, cook authentic Italian food, and welcome the local community to their tables. An old shack–no an outdoor kitchen–will be busting with busy hands over boiling water for a family-style dinner. The sultry air won’t give up the heat of the day. No, not yet, it isn’t time. Families, friends, neighbors, and I will be there passing food from hand to hand, and making new friends, even if it is only for an evening. First comes the antipasto, next cheese and salami served with bread. Take generously because there is always more than enough. Then the salad, made with a dressing I have yet to duplicate in my own home. Later comes the pasta, or will it be stuffed homemade raviolis? It doesn’t really matter, because the sauce masterfully made over and over for generations is the real reason to indulge, and I will. Finally, the main course of braised beef or pork, roasted potatoes and peas is meant to be the main event but, in my opinion, never quite compares to the pasta.
Then the night sky will return, and the twinkling lights over the happy faces will grow brighter and brighter, binding the chatter and commotion into mild rumbling against the growing quiet of evening’s rest, before everyone makes their way back home for a night of peaceful dreams and slumber.
But that’s tomorrow’s memory. Right now, I sit on my tattered swing overlooking the pine trees and valley, digging my toes in the dirt, watching the blue night air.
This is where I live. This is where I call home.




















































































